A Mother's Fear

Have you ever been in a place in your life  where you find yourself  reflecting on your life and asking yourself if  where you are today is it where you want to be? Two years ago, I was in that exact space feeling lost and uncertain as I stepped into my life changing role as a new mother and a wife. I have always considered myself to be very independent and always prepared to take care of myself in any situation since the age of sixteen. The transition was scary and also very new for me I was now in a space where I had to give up who I was to become the woman I was destined to be. I learned that my life was no longer just about me or what I wanted, and my new responsibility was to be a nurturer. I have been blessed with the opportunity to be home with my angel full time. I loved every minute being present every time she cried, every time she smiled, and every time she needed to be fed. I was always proud and amazed by my strength and drive to provide for me, but being a mother has been more fulfilling for me than anything else in the world I cannot imagine any love greater. I always imagined that carrying another human being was special but after experiencing my first I would rather describe it as the most magical experience. Every time I look at her, I felt like I had given birth to my heart with the opportunity to physically protect and take care for.

“A mother’s love for her child is like nothing else in this world”

Three months after giving birth to my baby girl was when reality set in when my current job position was no longer available for me to return as it promised to me. In the midst of my heart being filled with joy and gratitude, there were moments where I was filled with worry about how I planned to add value to my family. I had a lot of dreams and vision about being a phenomenal woman that my baby girl can be proud to call mother, a woman that my husband can be proud to call his wife. There were a lot of moments that the spirit of self-doubt and fear would creep in what I like to call the emotional distraction, something most people struggle with. My biggest concern at times was not having enough time, With only 24 hours in a day how do I find balance? I struggled with finding a balance between being an attentive mother as a newborn does require majority of your time. I still had duties to fulfill as a devoted wife, and taking care of my household. How do you even begin? it all begins with sacrifice, I learned to sacrifice the things that took much of my time but was not adding value to my life or my goals. The one thing I was very present to is that we cannot add more hours to a day we can only make time to focus on the things that are the most important. We must Make sure we are wisely investing time into our future in order to create the life that we love, one that brings us pure joy, free will, and great fulfillment.

In conclusion I want to remind everyone how precious time is and that it is important to not take a second for granted. There is not enough time in a day to waste a moment on unimportant things we are only robbing our future selves, and our family of new possibilities and a successful future. The most valuable lesson I have learned from my experience is that there is no real way to balance life because every day there are unexpected events that occurs that we cannot prevent or control. I learned to identify and focus on the things that are a priority in my life and give a hundred percent of myself to them It is not about how much time we think we have or need to get the job done; It’s about how you use your time to be in alignment with your goals.  Life does not get easier we get stronger by showing up each day and committing to our goals, everyday is not promised neither will It be perfect. The most important and rewarding thing is knowing your why and using each day as an opportunity to get closer to achieving your goals. I am a mother, a wife, and businesswoman on the rise you can do it too.

“We Have To Sacrafice The Things We Enjoy Now In Order To Create The Life We Deserve”