“So, it was in the beginning so it shall be in the end”, I shared this quote today to because I had a great realization from a conversation with my mother and my husband just recently.  The conversation was surrounding how vibrant and fearless I was as a child; my mother was sharing a moment when I was a about six years old. There was a local singing competition going on in the neighborhood   which of course I was too young to enter, but I had such a love for music and singing I approached the host and I asked if I could sing a song.  At first, he chuckled and kindly said no so I stood to the side and waited until there was no one else to go and I asked can I go now? He reluctantly said yes and gave me the microphone.  I was excited and confident in myself to perform before all these strangers, I sang, I smiled, and I danced I sang a song by TLC called unpretty. Listening to this story I can still recall how I felt and how brave I was, which brought me back to reconnect with the fact that I also loved entering spelling bee competitions and everything to do with reading and writing. I also was a very great track runner that at an early age I was disciplined in coming home and training every day.

I shared that to say this that as I got older there was a phase in my life that I had no desire for any of these things, the change in growth, the change of scenery, the adaption of living in a new country and just the average teenage phases.  I was filled with so much confusion and hurt about various things that I was holding on to so tight even as painful as they were. I would say from the age of 14- 20 I was disconnected from my true self I had no real purpose or a clue of what direction and what I truly wanted to do with my life.  I went through the everyday norm of doing what was right and what was expected of me, focusing only on how I can make my mother proud and repay her for all her hard work, even if it meant doing something that does not make me happy at all. I went to school, got good grades, I put my best foot forth in everything I committed to as long as it made my mother happy and it was up to the standards of family members.  At the age of 21 I decided to make a change in my lifestyle which I can honestly say may have been the decision that saved my life and helped me to find my true purpose in life.

After that conversation of reminiscing on the past I began to analyze who I am being today and what I am doing that brings me pure fulfillment and joy and to my surprise I realized I am right back where I started.  Falling in love with writing, being brave to be a voice to others, and being discipline in a health and active lifestyle just like I did when I was a child. This was not planned but neither do I believe it was an accident or a coincidence who I was destined to be I already was once before. This was pure confirmation that who we are   destined to be has always been inside of us all along we just must put in the work and find the connection with our true self. When we can always be connected to our source the universe can guide us into our path, but if we continue to erase and go farther away from who we are the farther we go from our purpose.  I encourage everyone reading today to take a brief trip down memory lane to find what you have left behind.  Life is a gift and there are no accident or coincidences on our journey’s everything was already written and already ours to achieve. Have an open mind and do not allow anything or anyone to change who you are, invest time in your spiritual growth and always being true to what you feel and who you are destined to be. Keep the connection with your inner youth and pure desires for your life that started at the age of innocence, your purpose comes back to you once you are brave enough to tap into your true self.